My awful experiences have given me an edge//

For so long, I’ve felt that what I went through in childhood & early adulthood set me up for a major disadvantage in life. It didn’t seem fair that some people had parents, and homes and I didn’t.

And that was true, for a while.

But…

Overcoming my loneliness gave me an edge. I never have to settle for someone’s company I don’t enjoy and I 𝒂𝒅𝒐𝒓𝒆 my own company. It can be hard to get me out of the house

Overcoming my abuse gave me an edge. I can connect to anyone on any level over any level of trauma they’ve experienced.

That’s something quite beautiful. That anyone… no matter what they’ve been through… can feel safe with me.

Overcoming my extreme poverty and being homeless 4 times gave me an edge. There is no low I can experience, that matches where I’ve been. My faith and certainty in my ability to recover is steadfast and rock solid.

It allows me to teach anyone, at any level how to get where they want to go financially. I understand most levels of the wealth spectrum. And all levels of humanity within that.

Overcoming my abandonment gave me an edge. I will always, always, always have myself. And that is something no one can take away.

That gives me a comfort so deep & true that I’m unshakable.

Overcoming my hair loss gave me an edge. I was forced … in the most radical way… to detach my worth and validation from my physical appearance.

I had to dig deeeeep inside to find what I believe makes me truly beautiful, and then I had to nurture it and love those parts AND the parts that don’t make me beautiful, until I could see my inner beauty shining out of face physically (this is a work in progress… sometimes I still just see my bald head and sunspots and crooked teeth. But sometimes … I’m stunned by how beautiful I am)

Overcoming my autoimmune (also in progress) is giving me an edge.

It is forcing me to spend 7 hrs a day on self care. Nurturing my body. Loving on it. Take extreme care of it to nurse it back to health. I am the nurse and the patient in the hospital bed and I am dedicated to my recovery.

Without trying to force a silver lining, your experiences have led you to some profound lessons and growth experiences, love.

That no one can replace or take away.

Your experiences have made you uniquely you, and that is stunning.

Allow yourself to work on letting go of the past. It is no longer useful.

Give yourself permission to move forward

You’ve got this!